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Out of the Ditch

expectations

Try This

Feel good every day.

Every day feel good.

It might hurt a little.

Two Weeks

So, I haven't been this reluctant about walking with luggage away from home in recent memory.  Sure I've thought about it, emoted it in various patterns and argued for it in myriad rationally grounded reasons in the past, but this time is different.

Possibly analagous to the story of the Old Bull and the Young Bull.

Expressed unambiguously, you can't force the layers off an onion without exposing too much; if you give the onion time, the layers peel easily off one by one.

So it is with Purpose.  Damned if it doesn't expose itself until the most awkward, inopportune moment.

Happy New Year.

I'll return

When the rest of it fills in with white

And if you're not done talking about it yet, I don't want to hear it.

Semantics: Revisit

I don't often write directly what's on my mind. Nor am I understood properly when I do.

I don't believe I'll attempt to start now.

 Someone recently asked me about regret, i.e., did I regret anything. I told the truth and lied and said yes.

 Before: A non-existent idea or a capitulation towards a passive rather than a proactive approach to life.

 Now: : Given the chance, one might make a different decision. This idea is complicated by the clarity of hindsight.

 Redundant thought: Had you acted differently, you wouldn't have known to act differently. Knowing what you now know might suggest that you 'should' have acted differently.

 So, really, there's no more space between the definitions than there is what defines the end and beginning of the space between two objects, two individuals, two ideas.

 It's like having an argument over whether someone can truly empathize with another.

Off the meds

"So here we are... Where are we?" What if community is wherever you are? What if community extends beyond time/space? What if community is internal? What is the acceptable price? No one ever told me.

On that synchronous loop

Sometimes, strange. So, something (rather a collection of things) I've ignored for almost 10 years now were cajoled out of the darkness in some serendipitous showing. While it doesn't completely jive with a few belief sets (some possibly too binary), I think I'll take the ride.

Yay

I'm free and am off again.

A tangent from the normal

"It’s actually necessary that America have a network reality show that pairs big, muscular soldiers with adoring D-list celebrities — hosted by a former Army General along with someone who used to be on Dancing with the Stars – as they play sanitized war games for the amusement of viewers, all in between commercials from the nation’s largest corporations. That’s way too perfect of a symbol of American culture and politics for us not to have."

- Glenn Greenwald

MD again

A salute and farewell to dichotomic placeholders, but not to hope.

A negation of optimism and pessimism, but not to idealist cynicism.

A refusal of acquiescence to the docile, the stagnant, the morally apathetic, the anti-intellectual.

a good month

So There

the rare and the ugly

So it goes...

End of Fall / Here / Not For Me

Yesterday:

Today:

Tomorrow:

Supposedly will be in the area of the World's Greatest Fall Festival

On Timing

So I got the best of summer for once.

I'm getting the best of fall. And hoping to extend it for a few weeks somewhere else.

Not to say that I didn't have my terribly cold/hot days or rain/ice/humid days, but all in all...

For once, timing is actually correct. How long has that been? 3 years?

There exists some sort of catharsis there. I've learned to embrace the memories contained in smells.

I've learned to let myself be happy. How long has that been? 15 years?

My misanthropy aside, I'll let go what I need to. All of it if necessary.

Summer Home

No complaints.

Really? - Bested

Seriously, last flight:

Gate Manager at Orlando(CA) airport:

"At this time all connections seem fine right now, as all places heading to Denver are on hold, you know, because of the old in and out."

As a side note, saute mushrooms in bacon grease and have a better day.